hey there again....jz came back from mcD-ing....hehehehe..i'm addicted to fillet-0-fish ad...aiks...cant ignore my craving for it....it's so delicious....hehehehe.....yum yum.....
on da way to mcD in ailing's car,heard da christmas songs...i LOVE christmas...i duno y...jz da feeling of feeling sumthing special on that day....n now i'm dl-ing any christmas songs that i can find....i actually go googled it...n it's a very very long list to go...hhhmm...how good it is if i got all da christmas songs...wow...i can listen to it day n night till christmas...hahahhaa....
hui jz now told me that having a bf is "not reli" a good thing....but i said not having a bf is "reli" not a good thing...get wat i mean???try to read it few times till u get it....n i think it's quite true lo...for me wat i wan is someone who knows wat i'm thinking without me telling anything..in short,someone who is understanding....someone who knows me inside out....most importantly someone who adores me....not bcoz of any other reason,but bcoz he wants to spend da rest of his time with me....not bcoz he has to,but he wants to...hahahaha...easy to say,not easy to find one...
tml graduation day arrr.....hehehehe..hopefully i go up stage that time i didnt fall down...hahahahaa.....k la..nit to get some sleep...coz monday still got law test...uurrggghhh...how to finish reading n memorizing????aaaaahhhh...i'm going crazy....laterz....
yinyin
18:37
Thursday 20 September 2007
here's one of da email that i receive recently that i think it's sumthing reli worth to share it with u...
don't let someone becomes a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life,
relationships work best when they are balanced.
never explain yourself to anyone.
because the person who likes you doesn't need it,
and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.
when you keep saying you are busy,
then you are never free.
when you keep saying you have no time,
then you will never have time.
when you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow,
then your tomorrow will never come.
when we wake up in the morning,we have two simple choices.
go back to sleep and dream,
or wake up and chase those dreams.
choice is yours..
don't make promises when you are in joy.
don't reply when you are sad.
don't take decision when you are angry.
think twice,act wise.
time is like a river.
you cannot touch the same water twice,
because the flow that has passed will never pass again.
enjoy every moment of life.
yinyin
18:09
Tuesday 18 September 2007
end of class for today
still early though
so went for lunch
da laughter
da smile
da face
da word
da act
da stare
complication
confusion
coward me
no likey la
haizzz
duno how to put into words
God!!!
i nit patience
i nit courage
i nit wisdom
to wait on
to face wat's ahead of me
to make correct moves n choices
till here
nit to start studying
hopefully can digest wateva i'm reading
tataz
yinyin
12:09
another monday as usual
jz another day isnt it??
watch movie to make my mood better
coz i dowan to study
no mood to study
ntg much
after watching movie take a nap
hhhmmm
in class today day dreaming alot
was thinking
y this world is so unfair
y others have it
but i dont
y others experience it
but i'm not
me too human right
from this moment
i'm gonna work hard towards stuff that i dont hav
things that i never experience b4
n make it a moments n memories that i'll always remember
this is my new resolution from now on
n i pray hard that it'll come true
it'll happen someday somehow
i'm tired when ppl uses me
it hurts when i came to know da truth
gambate yin!!!
yinyin
19:41
woo hoo....i pass my f7 test...yyiisshhh...didnt know that i'm able to pass that paper...overall good news la..i pass all my 3 papers' test...
since yest night i've been watching bourne identity,bourne supremacy n jz finish watching bourne ultimatum....syiok wei...very interesting movie...
went swimming with elaine jz now....not even 15 laps i started to feel my lung very pain...like each breathe i took,it's like needle piercing inside...so when elaine stop coz she nit to go back early, so i also get up ad...so stopped swimming after 13 laps...hopefully tml wont rain then going for swim again...must build back my stamina...hahahhaa....n also hopefully tml da pool wont b full of ppl....
wat u guys do when u feel reli down???sleep??eat???watch movie???laugh even more??talk even more???chocolates???ice creams???shout???scold???read???
y is there this unwanted feelings in me???with unspoken words which clearly is not clarifying da situation right now make matter worse...i want to know...i wan to know it all....but u r not telling me...not even a single word...how would i know wat's on ur mind????all i can say,u r confused...so am i...
i dont like da way u behave now...
i dont like da way u treat me...
i dont like da way u talk to me...
i dont like da way u response...
i dont like it...
i jz dont like it....
haih....tml still got tax class...from 8-2.30pm....uurrgghhh....even sat also got class...so cham....i better go finish up my hw now...ta...
yinyin
22:35
well...jz finish my class for today...gosh...so tired man....from 8am-2.30pm...n then got break bout 3 hours...went to pyramid to eat mcD...now i'm addicted to da filet-o-fish without cheese...coz i want it fresh so i prefer to order without cheese...then they would prepare a fresh burger for u....hahaa...special order..anyway,i dun like da cheese...so who cares if i dowan da cheese...buthen if pizza then it's a different thing...hehehhee...
n then after break,class started at 5.45pm-10pm...yeah...u must b thinking that sunway sux...yeah it does...long hours of studies is not good...plus got embarassed by tarsem....simply claim that i nit everyone to clap for me after i corrected john's mistake on da board...cis....teruk...every laugh at me like i'm sort of retarded person...
n yupz...here i am in hostel again after a long long hours of classes...
well...today he msg me when i was at pyramid...though it is jz sms-es buthen i feel reli happy...duno y...dowan it to end buthen low battery ad...so no choice but to stop b4 my phone die off....how come things like this happen when i was about to giv up???i reli made up my mind since yest morning that i would leave everything in da hands of God.....coz these few days my mind reli confuse bout everything...n my mood is so so so down...jz wanted to cry out loud....n then finally decided that i dont wat to think bout it anymore...frens is more than enough....but now...haih......i'll support my way of thinkin for now...which is that i wont let myself to experience another fall again....watever in da future that gonna take place,let future worries itself...i'm jz gonna make sure that i didnt fail any of my paper n hope that ppl around me will b blessed....
though somtimes that u might still hear me whining n complaining,but wat can i do???i'm still human right....things that cant b prevented from comin,wateva u do also u still nit to face it someday....
till here then....peace.....feeling alot better now after lifting my burden away....as in i decided not to care so much bout it....take care....ta~~~
yinyin
23:03
Thursday 6 September 2007
well,finally i'm back home for this weekend...miss home ler...miss everything from home...
this week class,hhhmmm still ok la...still got a lot of stuff nit to do revision...nit to lo...not that i kiasu or anything...da thing is that if i dont then i reli cant catch up in class....
haih...frens all getting into a new relationship...but me...still single...when am i going to find one???where's my da other half????cant wait to hav one...
sometimes when i c ppl ard me...holding hand...sitting to eat meal together...laugh together...sweet sms...someone there to wipe away ur tears...someone there to hold on tight to u...someone there ready to listen to u...someone there waiting for u...movies together...when can i reli hav someone there in my life???
but when i think that he's da one...actually he's not da one...then i nit to move on again n try my best to let go...n i scared that when he's da one for me,but i think he's not,then i might hav jz let a good opportunity slip away...
it's reli hard to make decision in this kind of things...sometimes i reli feel very tired of it...when i start not to think bout it...then it would appear out of no where some leng chai to attract me into this kind of things again....uurrggghhh.....cant it jz leave me alone for a while.....
giving n receiving wrong signal is another thing....it makes da whole thing even more complicated....coz each didnt reli xplain wat is their true motive...n left things unsolve...how great it is if each can jz b honest n say wat they think inside without having any grudge behind....
till here then....my mind reli not in peace right now...nit to get some sleep...take care...mwahs...
yinyin
22:19
helo again
been reli a tiring day today
after class went for badminton
n then swimming
u must b thinking that i'm crazy
yeah i am a little
then went for makan at murni with beloved ting n elaine
chit chat
laughter
food
drinks
ntg much these few days though
classes as usual
no homework
but nit to do lots of revision
due to day dreaming in class
no good no good
anyway,as for now
reli got no time to think of other stuff
but i jz cant seem to help it
mayb there's ntg
mayb there's sumthing
i wouldnt know
till i found out bout it later
yinyin,wake up call now
think of wat's right
n leave wat's wrong behind
time to move on
time to let go
time to take chance ahead of u
here's a song:
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, Cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish i would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things i've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess i've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause i'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Across Five Aprils A Year From Now lyrics
it's reli meaningful
not that it relates to me or anything
but guess i jz like it
that's all for now
tata
yinyin
00:24
it's been a few days since i last posted...that's bcoz i went for my acca camp...at commonwealth forest park & resort...it's AWESOME!!!!!with wonderful ppl ard u..exciting games to play...n of coz perfect moment all together at da camp...
first day reach there,n i had been categorized as paris(malaysian version) by my group leader,ming hee....did i ever tell u that he looks like my ex??well,ya...even da attitude resembles him...anyway,ming hee is a very good leader cant deny that...perhaps that's da reason my group is da winner for all da games n funs...proud of that...da following day more activities...very tiring...buthen worth it overall...n at da end of da day,it rains...so nice to walk under da rain....bad thing is our tent flooded...hahaha...lucky not all clothes r wet....last day sad sad...need to go back ad...da end of all da laughter n shouting....
kinda happy also that i decided to go for that camp....didnt reli think that i would reli enjoy there...but da gloomy thing that reminded me there is my ex...i know it's stoopid to even let that bastard to make my day blue...but i cant jz help it when i keep on thinking back bout da past...in ns camp...haish....i know i know i nit to let go...still trying hard for that...but at this camp,ming hee reli reminded me of him even more...i know i didnt like my ex anymore..but all those memories jz keep on comin back to haunt me...uuurrggghhh......i shudnt look back!!!!or else i would missed out da chances ahead....
anyway,today so ngam happened to see ming hee at cafeteria...as usual called me as paris...i'm not la...duno wat makes him thinks that i am....jz say hie n bye that's all...coz break onli 15mins n i nit to get sumthing to eat...hungryyyyyy......though jz a hie n bye but reli happy to c him....
now i gotta go get ready ad...wanna go for a swim...since me reli fat ad...like bout more than 2 weeks didnt swim...hahaha...hopefully later leg didnt cramp....chao for now....take care my fren...
yinyin
17:52
